How about you?

I might be missing out.

God seems like such a powerful, liberating and wonderfully awesome concept, but I've lost my grasp on faith. I haven't forgotten though. I don't understand what possible purpose God could have for me. It's not low self-esteem. I do not understand what possible purpose God could have for ANYONE. Earth is so little and one day won't even exist anymore. No one will be around to feel the affects of the lives of ancestors, let alone to remember. Perhaps one can argue that the eternal lives of others will be affected somehow by my actions but I think that goes against the justness of the whole idea. Whether or not someone ends up in heaven should not be connected to my actions at all, because then their fate is affected by my free will, or THEIR free will is not really free as it is dependent upon my actions.

It'd be nice to live with purpose again. I would like to live, not just exist.

Cuz when a heart break, it don't break even.

I don't want to go to school today, but I probably will.

I hate sorrys and I hate goodbyes.

I miss so many people. I do get to see them though sometimes. I guess it'll have to be enough. I have soccer tryouts today and I'm really freaked. All of a sudden I don't know if I want to play. Well I have to do my english. Wish me good luck. Good morning world. Oh right, today was supposed to be a new fresh day! Alright! So things will work out, I will have a good day! ....

Anyone who thinks happiness comes from sunshine has never danced in the rain

eating makes me feel better.

one word that describes my being, my life and my room.

messy.

maybe im glad no one every reads these :)

hello sappy teenage feelings. Gosh! I can not stop thinking about you! HONESTLY I think about you ALL the time. Not enough for you to be creeped out though, don't worry. But GAH! I want to kiss you and sometimes I can't focus in class. This morning just knowing there were people like you in the world honestly was what got me out of bed. I love you. There I said it. I love you. I love you, I love you, I LOVE YOU! To be truthful, you are dorky and weird but thats not anything to take offence to. I really REALLY wish I could see you everyday. Seriously, that would make my life SO much better. You are SO sweet. I love you. I LOVE YOU.

TIRED

this will be a good blog. I am tired. Good night.