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“If opportunity doesn't knock, build a door.” -- Milton Berle

“All our dreams can come true...if we have the courage to pursue them.” -- Walt Disney

"Listen, are you breathing just a little and calling it a life?" -- Mary Oliver

"You are not your story." -- Ms. Peters

"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, it is about learning to dance in the rain." -- Anonymous

"Our lives are like a candle in the wind." -- Carl Sandburg

"The next time it begins to rain... lie down on your belly, nestle your chin into the grass, and get a frog's-eye view of how raindrops fall... The sight of hundreds of blades of grass bowing down and popping back up like piano keys strikes me as one of the merriest sights in the world." -- Malcolm Margolin

"People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is light from within." -- Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

"Life expectancy would grow by leaps and bounds if green vegetables smelled as good as bacon." -- Doug Larson

"If all my friends were to jump off a bridge, I wouldn't jump with them, I would be at the bottom to catch them." -- Anonymous

“Trust your own instinct. Your mistakes might as well be your own, instead of someone else's.” -- Billy Wilder

"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened." -- Dr. Seuss

"Missing someone gets easier everyday. Because, even though it is one day further from the last time you saw each other, it is one day closer to the next time you will." -- Anonymous

"There is nothing in a caterpillar that tells you it's going to be a butterfly." -- R. Buckminster Fuller

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." -- Marilyn Monroe

"Be who you are, and say what you feel because those who mind dont matter and those who matter dont mind." -- Dr. Seuss

"Everyone in life is gonna hurt you, you just have to figure out which people are worth the pain." -- Anonymous

"I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing." -- Agatha Christie

"Expect nothing, live frugally on surprise." -- Alice Walker

"How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives." -- Annie Dillard

"If you try to let everything in your life run their course, eventually everything is going to collide." -- Hamza Zain

"The most difficult thing for a parent to realize is that their children aren't angels." -- Laurie Creery

FINALLY.

Soooo my outlook on life started declining in gr.5, and I think gr.8 was when depression started to cloud my thoughts. By the time gr.10 rolled around shit hit the fan and depression totally engulfed me. I started counselling and eventually went on depression medication and things started to look up, I even moved away to kind of get a fresh start. I stayed in counselling but I thought I could handle things without the depression medication and so I stopped cold turkey and as most people could guess things started going downhill again. I decided to go right back on the depression pills a couple weeks after, but sometimes I thought a few more pills would help me along. One day I took a few extra, and then a few more and kept going until I lost count and the bottle was empty. I spent the next week in the hospital and was put in foster care when I was released. I decided to put off killing myself until I was sure that it was the only option. I kept going to counselling and eventually moved in with my cousins. Its a year later now and it brings me joy to announce that my counselling sessions are officially over because my depression is over. Don't think for a second that it wasn't a lot of hard work. At some moments I completely lost hope, but now I can honestly say that I am happy. I feel like a completely different person! I can barely comprehend how distressed I used to be and I doubt that I'll ever sink that low for that long again. Thanks to my family, friends, teachers and counselors I have developed skills that will get me through the highs and lows of life. I did it, with your help, and its finally over :)

WORDVOMIT:)

Sooo my 'guardians' are away in Vegas, and I actually kind of miss them :/
My aunt and uncle are watching over me and the little ones, and I'm babysitting right now because my uncle fell and did something to his ribs or something and now is in the emergency room.
My brother got threatened by some kid because he tried to intervene in a fight. School admin and cops know, so he should be safe on school grounds, but he doesn't seem to give a shit and skips class and takes off without telling anyone. My dad blames it on the rap music.
.. what else?
An old friend of mine has cancer and I have no idea how she's doing. I suppose it doesn't make the least of difference to me now, but she's a good person and I would hate for anything to happen to her :(
.. is that all..?
Hmm..
Well I have a few tests tomorrow.. Like stuff for University and College.
KK well how should I solve this? Well theres nothing to solve, but how should I .. proceed?
I just feel so anxious and afraid :( And really tired. I'm going to shower then blow dry my hair and then straighten it. *SIGH*
OH SHIT. I needed info from my parents.. suppose I'll just call them in the morning..? :/
*SIIIIIIIIIIGHHHHHHHHHHHH* and a couple of hours ago I was in the best mood. :)

GO TO BED D:

THREE WAYS I AM STILL A KID:

1. I like slides.
2. I'm afraid of irrational things.
3. I live for cookies :)

THREE WAYS I AM ALREADY OLD:

1. Complain about change and how things used to be.
2. I groan as my body cracks and complain about my sore body
3. Like to go to bed early.

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO:

1. Go to sleep.
2. Eat.
3. Be happy.

THREE WAYS THAT I'M A STEREOTYPICAL “BOY”:

1. I like sports.
2. Make dirty jokes
3. I like getting dirty.

THREE WAYS THAT I’M A STEREOTYPICAL “GIRL”:

1. I love doing make up and hair
2. I talk about boys WAY too much
3. I think I'm fat :P

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1. my eyelashes
2. my strangeness
3. my nose

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1. I don't take my own advice
2. I am too much of a people pleaser
3. I care way too much

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:

1. CANADIAN
2. British
3. Irish

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:

1. failure
2. hell
3. depression

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (OR SAME...WHATEVER YOU LIKE) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:

1. smile
2. eyes
3. chest&butt :)

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:

1. spin my head all the way around
2. be on time :P
3. eat a slug

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:

1. business owner
2. hairstylist/make up artist
3. PR person for a company

ONE thing you wish you could say to someone right now:

1. good night

EIGHT ways to win my heart:

1. Don't give up on me.
2. Be there for me.
3. Be playful, but treat me with respect
4. Include me in your hobbies
5. Be interested in mine
6. Be vulnerable, open and honest
7. Ask me to go to church with you, and pray with me
8. Be humble

SEVEN people who mean a lot to you:

No. I refuse to do these.

SIX things that you can't live without:

1. Food
2. Water
3. Family
4. Friends
5. Hope
6. Laughter

FIVE things that cross your mind a lot

1. the future
2. scheduling
3. boys
4. food
5. the meaning behind everything

FOUR things you do before you fall asleep:

1. Facebook
2. Email
3. Brush teeth, wash face
4. Set alarm clock

THREE things that make you happy:

1. Love
2. Laughter
3. Good food :P

TWO things you want to do before you die:

1. Have a family of my own
2. DANCE.

ONE secret that you’re keeping from everyone:

1. Well, if I say it , it wouldn't be a secrent now, would it?